In shocked

Heard from someone that he already broke up with his girlfriend for some good reason; idk whats the reason. I was still in shocked knowing that hes no longer with her. Ya Allah, m really thankful for that. Alhamdulillah. It means I have a brighter future with him. But m so afraid at the same time. M afraid if he wont pick me up to be his girlfriend. M afraid if he changes his mind and turn around for someone else. M afraid if he doesnt love me anymore. M afraid of losing him! I hope dats me he always thinking of and always be me.

With that i-dont-care-what-the-fuck-your-girlfriend-feeling, I knoe m so mean. I should knoe how she feels. If I were her, I swear I will kill that girl who ruin my sweet lovey dovey relationship. But with not knowing theres a third party behind their relationship, m safe. I guess she will never knoe that m exist and had taken his loved ones away from her. For that, m really sorry. I didnt mean it. Its all beyond my control. I should knoe my limit after this. Stop crossing line, Syudd! This is the last and never repeat the same mistake again.